Martedì, Settembre 23, 2014

I’m trying so hard to stay positive about uni. Like I want to have a good time. Obviously I want to write good shit but tbh I think my prospects of getting a distinction for my wind quintet are better than my prospects of being happy socially or anything.

I don’t want to give up, especially since I actually feel pretty good atm. If this were happening in January…my gosh, but no I’m cool now. So I don’t want to give up, but then I wonder what the point is. I want to have a good time at uni, like fuck it I’m not even 20 yet. But it’s just so so hard. I can man up once, twice, three times to go to the SU bar. But when it gets to the seventh time to man up and you wonder what you’re actually getting from it, other than wasting money on drink and travel, and wasting time I could be using to compose, you kinda wonder what the point is.

I’m going to keep trying to man up and just let go and try to enjoy myself. I’m hoping that I’ll do it enough times and finally, for the first time in literally 19 years, it’ll start happening? 

But then I wonder if it already has. Like I was pretty popular with the guys this time last year but not now. Is it because they were going after me because I was a Fresher so vulnerable and lost? Or do they just not like me anymore? Assuming they ever did tbh. 

Literally every aspect of my life apart from my work and writing is looking pretty bleak atm.

Do I want to go out for a drink tonight because I’m bored and it might cheer me up?

Idk.

wedontneedsocialjusticewarriors:

Remember kids, “The Patriarchy” is a talking point created by feminists, not a governing body or principle that manifests in reality.

When a feminist claims to be is fighting “The Patriarchy”, she is fighting against a figment of her own imagination.

Let’s fight against real things, like world hunger, or cancer, or pseudo-intellectuals who make false claims about the way society functions.

-Ownnator

Lunedì, Settembre 22, 2014

I’m trying to write a cover letter for this job I’m appoying for because I really want this job more than any other I’ve applied for. But I just can’t do it. I don’t know what to say. I mean my A levels are pretty good, I’ve done volunteering shit and my Abby Lee Miller impersonation is getting pretty good. But how do I do this when I’ve been rejected from literally every job I’ve ever gone for. I know I’m capable but clearly employers don’t think so. Oh shit!

Oh, and I need to give this cover letter in tomorrow. It’s 22:33. I’ve written three lines. Oh fuck fuck fuck.

It really makes me laugh when Tumblr people call me “stupid”, “dense”, “dumbass”, “thick” etc because I’m obviously the total opposite. And I know I’m going to sound super arrogant yet again. But like I do struggle with my ability sometimes, when I compare myself to other composers and think I’m much worse, because all the other composers I know are pretty damn amazing. But if I were such a “dumbass”, would I be where I am now, up there with them? Would I have achieved what I have? Clearly not, very few people will do what I’ve done or am doing in their lifetime, let alone before they’re 20. And to do this, you need certain things: intelligence, curiosity, determination, ambition, good work ethic, talent (obviously) etc. If you don’t have all that, it just doesn’t happen. You could have the natural talent of Mozart, but it still wouldn’t be enough.

I literally cannot even remember the last time I was called ‘stupid’ irl, by someone I actually know, apart from as a joke. I get called pretty much every name under the sun but not stupid. Generally the comment is the opposite, that I’m “too smart”.

I’m going to get hate for being arrogant, I don’t think it’s arrogance. And why the fuck not after what I’ve been through, and when idiots on this website disagree with an opinion and get lairy about it. It’s hysterical.

sloppyninja:

elligranka:

sloppyninja:

elligranka:

 

I was expecting myself to be all “oh stfu yes voters” after this…but this is horrible.BUT:

The lady counting the votes and changing it, she is an individual. How do we know there wasn’t another individual doing the same for the ‘yes’ voters but footage has been witheld? Would be interesting to know how wide spread this is, because if this only happened in three wards, the difference would be about a thousand mis-counted votes at the most.

But the thing that pisses me off about this is that they blame the United Kingdom for this. Um, sorry, fuck off! The rest of the UK - England, Wales, NI, Isle of Man and Cornwall - we have done nothing wrong. Actually this referendum has been a load of shit to us, especially to England imo. If Scotland had gone, we’d have lost 5m people, several tourist sites, however much oil and a lot of our power in the EU. Yet we had no say. Whatever decision Scotland came to, the rest of us would have to put up with it, no matter how potentially damaging it would be. Because it does affect all of us. Why do think Spain is so keen on holding on to Catalonia?

And now look what’s happened: Scotland had ridiculous powers anyway. Scottish MPs can vote in matters that applied to England only. That’s like us voting in Irish elections, it’s ridiculous. We give them so much money and power, the power to fuck us over if they want to. And now look, Westminster has pandered even more to Scotland, giving them even more fucking power, spending all this time focusing on this referendum whilst our problems aren’t going away. We even allowed you to have a fucking referendum, we allowed you to decide your own future. Not many separatist states in the world get that opportunity. And you blame us? The rest of the UK has done nothing wrong, we’ve given you so much. And before you call me a douche or whatever, my opinions are actually pretty widely held in the UK, in England especially.

I’ll probably upset a lot of people about this, but I think after Cornwall and IoM, England is the most fucked over nation of the UK by far. We barely have a national identity anymore. We acknowledge St David’s day, St Andrew’s day but not St George’s day. We allow Scottish MPs to decide England’s future. We allow Scotland and Wales to have SNP and PC and for Scotland to have a referendum. Hey, England could be an independent country, since, y’know, London and the Home Counties basically run the entire fucking country! But nope, if you’re “English”, if you’re waving the St George’s cross, you’re looked upon as an EDL Nazi who hates Muslims and Jews. Sorry, the situation in England is awful and so unfair on us.

Have your recount, but it won’t change anything. The No vote has always led the polls. The Yes campaign was utter wank. Alex Salmond couldn’t even tell us how exactly an independent Scotland would work without the big pot of money from Westminster. The majority of people are not so stupid that they will do this and think that the day after independence, milk and honey will flow. Just ask anyone from Croatia, BiH, Slovakia, Kazakhstan, Lithuania etc and they will tell you what a bad idea it is, since they have first hand experience of it.

Hey dumbass, it doesn’t matter if there are also people doing it for the yes side, there is forgery going on and it needs to be recounted, it makes no difference if there are also people doing it for the yes piles.

the difference would be about a thousand mis-counted votes at the most.” I’m sorry do you not understand how the fuck a democracy works? Just ONE forged vote is forgery.

Actually this referendum has been a load of shit to us… Yet we had no say. “ Read a fucking history book you dumbass, the only people that get to decide on independence are the people that are trying to become independent. I don’t know how you could actually think that anyone BUT scotland get’s some say in this.

We even allowed you to have a fucking referendum” Are you really that fucking dense? Allowed scotland to vote on it’s INDEPENDENCE?That’s like saying “we even allowed scotland to have a say in government”

Idek why I’m replying to this because my post is clearly the opinions of someone as an English person - views held by many of us here. And your response is extremely and unnecessarily rude and I’m in a stinking foul mood but hey:

As I said, it is horrible, and I didn’t say that there shouldn’t be a recount. I’m saying it will not make a difference to the end result anyway unless it’s really widespread. I’m pointing out because there are some very very upset ‘yes’ voters who think that it’s the BBC’s fault or England’s fault or whatever. Which is the thing I’m pissed at. Yes, I agree that forgery is wrong, I never said “oh yay” or “who cares?” Maybe read what people say before responding, especially if you’re going to do so in such a vile way?

You think we shouldn’t get a say in this? Ok…I’m going to spell this out to you because you don’t actually seem to understand that this does affect people outside of Scotland too. Ok, London has a population of over 10m, most of the UK’s GDP is generated here, it is the most popular tourist attraction in the UK, it is a major transport hub including five airports, the biggest stuff going on in culture. Soooo why don’t we leave the UK so we don’t have to prop up the rest of the country because we could easily support ourselves? That won’t affect anyone else, would it? Um, of course it would! And do you think it would be fair for the rest of the country to sit back and hmm and har about it and accept it? Um, no, they would not. Now it’s the same here. Whatever happens with Scotland would affect the whole of the UK - we loose 5m people, a load of power in the EU, oil if they go. That will be very damaging to the rest of us…and you guys think we should just accept it? Of course we shouldn’t! I’m sorry but so many people in England and elsewhere think we should have a say. This is our future too, not just Scotland’s.

Your last point makes no sense and it doesn’t seem like you have understood me, so I’ll explain. Think of as many separatist states around the world, and how many have had the opportunity to vote for their independence. Catalonia, Euskadi, Chechnya, Kurdistan, Tibet, Texas - to name but a few - are some states that have not ever had a referendum on their independence. Why? Because the ‘mother country’ has not allowed this, that country doesn’t want them to go. We actually gave Scotland an opportunity to leave if they wanted to, something that many separatist states will probably not get for some time, if ever. 

Your rudeness does not help your point, and the fact you are calling me, of all people, ‘dumbass’ and ‘dense’ (for having an opinion on how my own country should work, lol) is laughable because I am literally the total opposite and I do things that most people can’t even imagine. So I’d suggest maybe thinking of an insult with more truth in it next time.

views held by many of us here” - Bandwagon fallacy / Status quo bias

"you don’t actually seem to understand that this does affect people outside of Scotland too" - Straw Man fallacy. I never said that, what I said is that even if it affects them they don’t get any say in it.

why don’t we leave the UK so we don’t have to prop up the rest of the country because we could easily support ourselves?” false equivalence

And do you think it would be fair for the rest of the country to sit back and hmm and har about it and accept it?” Yes, that’s how independence works.

I’m sorry but so many people in England and elsewhere think we should have a say.” - Bandwagon fallacy / Status quo bis

"I am literally the total opposite and I do things that most people can’t even imagine." - Self aggrandizement fallacy

"We actually gave Scotland an opportunity to leave if they wanted to, something that many separatist states will probably not get for some time, if ever. " I’m sorry, how does that affect anything?

"View held by many of us here" and "I’m sorry but so many people in England and elsewhere think we should have a say.” - Actually not why I believe it. Here’s a radical thought but you can genuinely actually believe something that is believed by a lot of people. It’s like people who genuinely like pop music for reasons other than “everyone else does.”

The whole things about if London were to go was just an example to spell it out to you because I didn’t think you understood. It’s also, actually, a damn good idea.

Clearly in this instance, it is how it works, the majority of the country have to sit back and watch as we potentially get fucked over…is that how it should work? Um, no. And is that actually how it works? Well, people in England and elsewhere aren’t happy about it, we had a lot to say. So yes, we made our opinions heard. Many people here got actively involved in the Better Together campaign, because that was the most we could do. Point is, the rest of the union should have a say, regardless of how a Tumblr kid tells me how independence works, without actually considering that in literally every case I can think of, the rest of that country have an opinion and try their best to get their voices heard. Is it right we should be ignored and leave our future in the hands of people who may not understand England’s needs?

My last point is in response to the video blaming the UK for Yes Scotland’s failure, when they don’t appear to realise that we gave them a chance to go. If we were really that evil, we would not have done so. Scotland is fucking lucky, many separatist states would love that opportunity but will possibly never get it.

And ‘self aggrandisement fallacy’??? Actually, I’m sorry to tell you hun, but it’s actually the truth. Like….do you even know what I do? Have you even read by bio and shit and seen what exactly it is that I do? I would suggest you do. I know I sound super arrogant…but with my achievements and everything, the writing is kinda on the wall, and certainly means ‘dumbass’ is literally the most idiotic insult you could actually use against me because you just make yourself look, well, like a dumbass.

Ps. apparently these videos have been debunked as fake. Not sure how true that is, but if so it’s time to suck it up guys.

(Fonte: nateogosu)

Domenica, Settembre 21, 2014

So my target is 2086 calories a day (calculated with my height, weight, age, sex and exercise regime). I’ve eaten 1907 today. Which isn’t bad because it’s my first day of trying this. But I ate a much bigger lunch today than I normally do, and most of those calories are accounted for by that Terry’s Chocolate Orange.

(Fonte: garbanzotoons)

tom-fletcher:

elotsmoth:

WWI Irish conscription poster. Ireland, taking nothing seriously ever. “Medals will be presented after the match”. Fuck sake.

jaysus

tom-fletcher:

elotsmoth:

WWI Irish conscription poster. Ireland, taking nothing seriously ever. “Medals will be presented after the match”. Fuck sake.

jaysus

offside-goal:

"Why do people call themselves egalitarians instead of feminists that’s so dumb!!!"
image

nathanielbuildsatesseract ha detto: Are you actually losing weight, though? Or is that just the general recommendation?

I’m not losing weight, no, I want to maintain my weight. But I do want to eat better because I felt so shit and sluggish all last year because I under-ate for the whole year. And I’m still under-eating.

englishsnow:

Orcas - Tysfjord, Norway

(Fonte: Flickr / jonathanball)

Here’s something interesting: apparently I should be eating 2086 calories a day to maintain my weight at my gender, age, height (156cm) and weight (50-53kg), and with my exercise pattern.

I’ve had breakfast, lunch and dinner, with a bigger lunch than normal. I’ve only eaten 1353 today, which is 65% of my target. Fuck I am seriously undereating but idk how to stop this because I’ve eaten better than normal today. And when I get stressed I completely loose my appetite and I have to force myself to eat. Aaand I’ve only just gotten back into my exercise pattern of moderate exercise 3-4 days a week plus light exercise every day.

How do I eat more when I’m so rarely hungry? I suppose I could be even more active like every single day so I do get hungry, but that’ll mean I have to eat more and fuck!

I actually came on here to talk about how lonely I feel all the fucking time and how I don’t think it can ever change and I wonder why this has to happen to me and not change.

Like idk, even though I’m literally in my happiest time of year atm and I’m back at uni, this feeling just never leaves.

sloppyninja:

elligranka:

kiradax:

ajaxdotcom:

natwiththespats:

PROOF OF VOTING BEING RIGGED

PETITION FOR A RECOUNT

ANOTHER PETITION

SIGN IT, DON’T LET THEM AWAY WITH THE SAME SHIT THEY PULLED 30 YEARS AGO

this is.. this is so blatant.. what the hell

Please sign this petition, please spread it like wildfire! We NEED a recount or a revote.

I was expecting myself to be all “oh stfu yes voters” after this…but this is horrible.BUT:

The lady counting the votes and changing it, she is an individual. How do we know there wasn’t another individual doing the same for the ‘yes’ voters but footage has been witheld? Would be interesting to know how wide spread this is, because if this only happened in three wards, the difference would be about a thousand mis-counted votes at the most.

But the thing that pisses me off about this is that they blame the United Kingdom for this. Um, sorry, fuck off! The rest of the UK - England, Wales, NI, Isle of Man and Cornwall - we have done nothing wrong. Actually this referendum has been a load of shit to us, especially to England imo. If Scotland had gone, we’d have lost 5m people, several tourist sites, however much oil and a lot of our power in the EU. Yet we had no say. Whatever decision Scotland came to, the rest of us would have to put up with it, no matter how potentially damaging it would be. Because it does affect all of us. Why do think Spain is so keen on holding on to Catalonia?

And now look what’s happened: Scotland had ridiculous powers anyway. Scottish MPs can vote in matters that applied to England only. That’s like us voting in Irish elections, it’s ridiculous. We give them so much money and power, the power to fuck us over if they want to. And now look, Westminster has pandered even more to Scotland, giving them even more fucking power, spending all this time focusing on this referendum whilst our problems aren’t going away. We even allowed you to have a fucking referendum, we allowed you to decide your own future. Not many separatist states in the world get that opportunity. And you blame us? The rest of the UK has done nothing wrong, we’ve given you so much. And before you call me a douche or whatever, my opinions are actually pretty widely held in the UK, in England especially.

I’ll probably upset a lot of people about this, but I think after Cornwall and IoM, England is the most fucked over nation of the UK by far. We barely have a national identity anymore. We acknowledge St David’s day, St Andrew’s day but not St George’s day. We allow Scottish MPs to decide England’s future. We allow Scotland and Wales to have SNP and PC and for Scotland to have a referendum. Hey, England could be an independent country, since, y’know, London and the Home Counties basically run the entire fucking country! But nope, if you’re “English”, if you’re waving the St George’s cross, you’re looked upon as an EDL Nazi who hates Muslims and Jews. Sorry, the situation in England is awful and so unfair on us.

Have your recount, but it won’t change anything. The No vote has always led the polls. The Yes campaign was utter wank. Alex Salmond couldn’t even tell us how exactly an independent Scotland would work without the big pot of money from Westminster. The majority of people are not so stupid that they will do this and think that the day after independence, milk and honey will flow. Just ask anyone from Croatia, BiH, Slovakia, Kazakhstan, Lithuania etc and they will tell you what a bad idea it is, since they have first hand experience of it.

Hey dumbass, it doesn’t matter if there are also people doing it for the yes side, there is forgery going on and it needs to be recounted, it makes no difference if there are also people doing it for the yes piles.

the difference would be about a thousand mis-counted votes at the most.” I’m sorry do you not understand how the fuck a democracy works? Just ONE forged vote is forgery.

Actually this referendum has been a load of shit to us… Yet we had no say. “ Read a fucking history book you dumbass, the only people that get to decide on independence are the people that are trying to become independent. I don’t know how you could actually think that anyone BUT scotland get’s some say in this.

We even allowed you to have a fucking referendum” Are you really that fucking dense? Allowed scotland to vote on it’s INDEPENDENCE?That’s like saying “we even allowed scotland to have a say in government”

Idek why I’m replying to this because my post is clearly the opinions of someone as an English person - views held by many of us here. And your response is extremely and unnecessarily rude and I’m in a stinking foul mood but hey:

As I said, it is horrible, and I didn’t say that there shouldn’t be a recount. I’m saying it will not make a difference to the end result anyway unless it’s really widespread. I’m pointing out because there are some very very upset ‘yes’ voters who think that it’s the BBC’s fault or England’s fault or whatever. Which is the thing I’m pissed at. Yes, I agree that forgery is wrong, I never said “oh yay” or “who cares?” Maybe read what people say before responding, especially if you’re going to do so in such a vile way?

You think we shouldn’t get a say in this? Ok…I’m going to spell this out to you because you don’t actually seem to understand that this does affect people outside of Scotland too. Ok, London has a population of over 10m, most of the UK’s GDP is generated here, it is the most popular tourist attraction in the UK, it is a major transport hub including five airports, the biggest stuff going on in culture. Soooo why don’t we leave the UK so we don’t have to prop up the rest of the country because we could easily support ourselves? That won’t affect anyone else, would it? Um, of course it would! And do you think it would be fair for the rest of the country to sit back and hmm and har about it and accept it? Um, no, they would not. Now it’s the same here. Whatever happens with Scotland would affect the whole of the UK - we loose 5m people, a load of power in the EU, oil if they go. That will be very damaging to the rest of us…and you guys think we should just accept it? Of course we shouldn’t! I’m sorry but so many people in England and elsewhere think we should have a say. This is our future too, not just Scotland’s.

Your last point makes no sense and it doesn’t seem like you have understood me, so I’ll explain. Think of as many separatist states around the world, and how many have had the opportunity to vote for their independence. Catalonia, Euskadi, Chechnya, Kurdistan, Tibet, Texas - to name but a few - are some states that have not ever had a referendum on their independence. Why? Because the ‘mother country’ has not allowed this, that country doesn’t want them to go. We actually gave Scotland an opportunity to leave if they wanted to, something that many separatist states will probably not get for some time, if ever. 

Your rudeness does not help your point, and the fact you are calling me, of all people, ‘dumbass’ and ‘dense’ (for having an opinion on how my own country should work, lol) is laughable because I am literally the total opposite and I do things that most people can’t even imagine. So I’d suggest maybe thinking of an insult with more truth in it next time.

(Fonte: nateogosu)